Saturday, August 6, 2011

Happy Birthday...To ME!

This has been an amazing year. The last month has, so many times, reminded us of how blessed we are. Thinking about how different this summer is from last one....how Dashiell and I are alive and well, and NOT in the hospital. (And no surgeries so far this year, woohoo!) All of those not-so-little things that get so easily taken for granted in the day to day. Those things are really what matter. Last year was really such a blur to me (they kept me pretty well drugged) but it was basically the longest year of my husband's life. Single dadhood to three little girls, just trying to hold everything together....he has more than once this summer told me how overwhelmed and grateful he is to have us all with him. And really, that is the greatest gift of all, to have my family together. (Though the flowers, presents and tickets are pretty nice, too!)
My goals for 35 were pretty simple: Stay alive. Keep baby alive. Be able to lift own head again someday.
This year I am blessed to be able to want more for 36. My goals?
 Relax. Let the things go that I can't change anyway!
 Enjoy my children more. No more of this stressing over "playing catch-up" from last year.
 Laugh more readily.
 Love more openly.
Go on more dates with my husband!
Take it easy on myself. I'm only human after all. (Though the fact that Joel and the kids seem to think I have a few superpowers is still pretty cool.)
Breathe. Enjoy the journey...I only get to do it once!
So I know I've mentioned I'm not overly thrilled about this being closer to 40 than 30 business, but in reality? I'm just thrilled to be here. So no major introspection, nothing too profound from me this year. Just the simple facts: Life is good. Now I'm going to go live it.

3 comments:

Who am I... said...

Happy Birthday!!!! :)

memyselfandkhai said...

Happy Birthday!

Such lovely and achievable goals, your so right enjoy life and your family, it’s so much better when we find a way not to concentrate on age but on all the beautiful things in our lives, I hope you had a wonderful day and that the year ahead is kind and what you hope it will be.

Jersey Knitting Mama said...

Happy Birthday!!!! Wishing you health and happiness!!!

So I learned this line on Oprah but I forgot who said this.

"Aging is a privileged."

This makes so much sense.